Experiencing the Grind

It has been awhile since my last update, and I am pleased to say that things are progressing, albeit slowly. Nevertheless, there is still a long ways to go and things could change instantly.

The hardest part about life now is the schedule. I wake up at 6:30 am, I'm at the hospital between 7 and 8, I finish the morning appointment between 1 and 2, I get 4-5 hours of free time, and I'm back in the evening for more medication that runs until 10 or 11 pm. Also, several times per week there is an afternoon appointment that sucks up my free time. With my current state, I'm finding it very difficult to keep up and not get burned out.

Through this schedule, I also need to find time to study for one remaining exam and play catchup on life. If I continue to progress towards recovery, I should see my things lighten a bit in September, and I may get some days off by October or November. Since this whole ordeal began in March, I have had only a handful of days off from the hospital.

Also, I have to squeeze an hour of exercise into my day or I get extremely weak because of the steroids. The doctors are very concerned about the amount of muscle atrophy that I have experienced, especially in my legs and chest. It will take several months after I am fully off the steroids before I am able to physically recover and start making some gains again.

In short, I am very burned out and frustrated; yet I have to remember that compared to a month ago, life has improved. It is hard not knowing whether things will continue to improve or what will become of the future, but I'm just going to do the best I can and trust in God for the remainder.